Signs That You’ve Been Abused by a Narcissist



Do you recognize that you’re doubting yourself more than you ever have before?

Victims of narcissistic abuse often appear uncertain of themselves, constantly seeking clarification that they haven’t made a mistake or misheard something.

This reactive adaptation to narcissistic abuse is because the narcissist is ALWAYS finger pointing and shifting blame to YOU for ALL of the ups & downs both in the relationship AND in the narcissist’s personal psyche.
Because this relationship has NON EXISTENT boundaries, you will find YOURSELF constantly PUT UPON and FORCED to accept responsibility for things you didn’t do or say. This borrowed humiliation and shame is exactly what the narcissist intends for the victim to take from the narcissist. Their own unfelt core of shame.



Just refer to the above explanation of self doubt and boundary transgression if you want to understand the CONFUSION that is part and parcel of narcissistic abuse.

Daily boundary transgression and criss crossing of responsibility starts to wear on even the clearest minded of targets.
Suddenly you wake up and realize that all the realities and borders between yourself and others is not only BLURRED but MISSING.

It’s confusing to KNOW that you aren’t responsible for someone else’s behavior, thinking and feeling but to be CONSTANTLY SCOLDED for behaving, thinking and feeling as if you ARE.

It’s crazy-making and a narcissist purposefully causes this confusion. They know that a divided and conquered mind is their most vulnerable and susceptible target who won’t be able to identify that their confusion is caused by an abusive technique called ‘gaslighting’.

Gaslighting is a technique of psychological abuse used by narcissists to instill confusion and anxiety in their target to the point where they no longer trust their own memory, perception or judgment.  With gas lighting, the target initially notices that something happens that is odd, but they don’t believe it.  The target attempts to fight the manipulation, but are confused further by being called names or told that they’re: ‘Just Too sensitive’, ‘Crazy’, ‘Imagining things’ or the narcissist  flat out DENIES ever saying anything hurtful. Gradually, the target learns not to trust their own perceptions and begins doubting themselves.  Broken and unable to trust themselves, they isolate further. The target now doubts everything about themselves: their thoughts and opinions, their ideas and ideals. They become dependent on the narcissist for their reality.

For it is in your CONFUSION and acceptance of responsibility that belongs to the narcissist, that a narcissist is able to successfully CONTROL YOU and USE YOU as a scapegoat for their problems.


Every minute of every hour of every day of every year, a Narcissist, who has a DSM classifiable personality DISORDER (ie: not playing with a full deck) is PROJECTING their disorder onto those around them. If you don’t think that having a crazy person constantly blaming you for being “crazy” will make you crazy, I’d like to introduce you to a narcissist that will convince you otherwise.

This disorder isn’t a relationship gone wrong. This disorder isn’t kid stuff. It’s MALEVOLENT. It’s a transference of malevolence and MENTAL DISORDER from the person who has it to the person who DOESN’T.LOVE QUOTES (39)

Frankly, before a narcissist, I’ve not once in my life, FELT CRAZY. Neither have I ever been told by a psychologist and I’ve seen lots of them – that I had anything WRONG with MY own MENTAL HEALTH. Personally, I always had it “together”. I was resilient, mentally tough, and withstood many events in my life that would make others crumble.

Yet, when I unwittingly dated someone with this serious mental health malady, I wanted to slam an entire set of broken porcelain down his throat sideways and every obtuse moron that believes the garbage that comes out of his mouth. No, it’s not that I suddenly became a person interested in physical violence, I suddenly became a person who was witnessing a DSM category all wrapped up into a physical being – who turned his mental health problems ON Me. I became a target of a person with a problem. They say, “Hurt people, HURT people”. I say, “Narcissistic People DESTROY PEOPLE”.



All I could muster to the narcissist in my dear john letter when I broke up with him that wonderful New Year’s Eve, was “I DONT KNOW what’s WRONG!! But I just don’t feel like myself. Something feels EXTREMELY TOXIC and I don’t know why”…..This should be the alert when a victim of narcissistic abuse presents themselves to therapists. The inexplicable “complaint”.

My first visit to my therapist were those words exactly. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but It’s SERIOUS!” I felt it. I did – I felt BEWILDERED inside, but I could not articulate what it was. (another red flag for someone usually able to articulate every feeling and explanation about myself in-depth).How was it that after 43 years of explaining, analyzing and discussing my own deficiencies quite well, I could NOT for the life of me explain to my therapist what was so “wrong” with me that it was palpable. His answer, set me free, it really did. 


My therapist had some background with this person. He’d WITNESSED the narcissist calling me, berating me during sessions. I held the phone away during one session, so that my therapist could hear the narcissist on the other end questioning me about cheating, “Accusing me of having an affair with the therapist”.  Grilling me about what the therapist looked like and would speak to me like. He even accused the therapist of wanting me sexually and that was the reason the therapist spoke so lowly of the narcissist. (of course it couldn’t just be that the narcissist had a bad reputation and the community was on to him)

Sufferers report that their spark has gone out and, even years later, find they just cannot get motivated about anything.

Unaware that we’ve been living in a war zone with a tyrannical narcissist, we can’t quite grasp the words to articulate the abuse, yet at the same time, we VERY MUCH FEEL IT. We present ourselves to the mental health community, incapable of speaking about an abuse we yet know nothing about. Until that word, “NARCISSISTIC ABUSE” is given to us, we have NO IDEA that is what’s causing our pain. That’s why it’s SO IMPORTANT to get the word out there, what narcissists look like, their modus operandi, the words and phrases they use, so that when a victim of their abuse begins looking for answers, they quickly will be able to identify that they are involved with a narcissist.

In Narcissistic Victim Syndrome you are looking for a cluster of symptoms to emerge many are the symptoms of trauma (avoidance, loss of interest, feeling detached, sense of a limited future, sleeping or eating difficulties and nightmares, irritability, hyper-vigilance, easily startled, flashbacks, hopelessness, psychosomatic illnesses, self-harming, thoughts of suicide etc).Some victims develop Stockholm Syndrome and want to support, defend, and love the abuser despite what they have gone through.


Victims tend to ‘dissociate’ or detach from their emotions, body, or surroundings. Living in a war zone where all forms of power and control are used against you (intimidation; emotional, physical and mental abuse; isolation, economic abuse, sexual abuse, coercion, control etc), the threat of abuse is always present. Dissociation is an automatic coping mechanism against overwhelming stress.

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Symptoms of dissociation resulting from trauma may include depersonalization, (disconnecting your body awareness from your physical self) psychological numbing, disengaged from life and passions, or amnesia regarding the events of the abuse.

It has been hypothesized that dissociation may provide a temporarily effective defense mechanism in cases of severe trauma; however, in the long-term, dissociation is associated with decreased psychological functioning and adjustment.

Other symptoms sometimes found along with dissociation in victims of traumatic abuse (often referred to as “sequelae to abuse”) include anxiety, PTSD, low self-esteem, somatization, depression, chronic pain, interpersonal dysfunction, substance abuse, self-mutilation and suicidal ideation or actions. These symptoms may lead the victim to erroneously present the symptoms as the source of the problem.


Let’s face it. If I didn’t mention PTSD, or Complex PTSD, I would NOT be doing the topic of narcissistic abuse syndrome ANY justice.

Ptsd, in layman’s terms? From a fellow sufferer? A Cerebral anxiety attack that makes your whole body come alive with PALPABLE FEAR. The rapid heart beat, the intrusive and spinning thoughts and fears – just like the abuse is CURRENTLY HAPPENING SEQUENTIALLY ALL OVER AGAIN. This is called RE-LIVING.  It’s as if the traumatic abuse event is occurring in the present tense. All the emotions of fear, shame, shrinking, wincing, looking over your shoulder & walking on eggshells waiting to be attacked ruthlessly AGAIN.     ptsd

Physical numbness –

(toes, fingertips, lips) is common, as is emotional numbness (especially inability to feel joy).

Avoidance –

of places, sounds, tastes, and songs that remind them of their abuser or the abuse. Intense feelings of anxiety even in anticipation of having to revisit the memories.

Memory Loss – Almost all targets report impaired memory. Partially due to conscious avoidance as well as from the damage done to the hippocampus, an area of the brain linked to learning and memory.

Need for solitude / tendency to isolate
We’re EXHAUSTED after narcissistic abuse. Feelings of withdrawal and isolation are common; we just want to be in our own head for a while, find our own answers; thus, solitude is sought.

Lack of Joy and Hope
Inability to feel joy (anhedonia) and deadening of loving feelings towards others are commonly reported. One fears never being able to feel love or trust again.

The target becomes very gloomy and senses a foreshortened future sometimes with justification. Many targets ultimately have severe psychiatric injury, severely impaired health and/or stress related illnesses.

Melatonin became my new best friend after narcissistic abuse. The nightmares and night terrors can be overwhelming that good restorative sleep becomes impossible.  Napping became my new favorite passion.

Sleep becomes almost impossible, despite the constant fatigue; such sleep as is obtained tends to be unsatisfying, unrefreshing and non-restorative. On waking, the person often feels more tired than when they went to bed. Depressive feelings arrive very early in the morning, making falling back to sleep an impossibility.  Feelings of vulnerability and loneliness may be heightened overnight.

Anxiousness, Guilt & Disturbing thoughts – 

Targets have an extremely short fuse and are easily irritated. The person frequently experiences obsessive visions of violence happening to the narcissist  hoping for an accident for, or murdering the narcissist; the resultant feelings of guilt further limit progress in healing.

Fight or Flight Response – 

With your system on alert for ever-present danger in the environment it’s easy to react sensitively to sudden changes – causing the startle response.

Awareness of symptoms – 

It’s very harrowing to realize that you are different from you were before the narcissist; FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT. When you are very aware that PTSD has replaced the narcissist, it emotionally drains the target of any hope for being PERMANENTLY NARCISSISTIC FREE. We don’t want to be constantly reminded and aware of the person we escaped. We want to live freely, however symptoms, are a constant reminder that we DON’T.

Posted on December 1, 2013, in Narcissism. Bookmark the permalink. 1,025 Comments.

  1. I always thought something was wrong, but could not put my finger on it. The Lord finally revealed things to me and I realized that I did not know this man who I had known for over 30 years. The years of lies and emotional abuse are over. I love myself too much to be treated so badly.


  2. I cried through all of this because it represents exactly how I feel. I’m suffering right now from one of his moments of torment. Sad…I will be ok I always get over it. It just seems that it is getting longer and harder to do. I love him in spite of the pain he puts me through, thought if I loved him enough it could change. I know now coming to except that he needs help.


  3. Thank you for writing this. It puts into words what I cannot yet… big yet…express for myself. Someday I will. My mom was 22 of 23 tabs on donn website describing narcissism and I lived closely with her abuse for 45 years not knowing what it was, had 5 years of freedom and then 5 more with a narc a user I am 3 months no contact. Have the info now but need time to recover. Info like this helps tremendously. Ty ty ty


  4. I was in two emotionally abusive relationships. The first was 5 years (married at 17/divorced at 22) and was the worst, but it set me up to be blindsided by the next one, thinking he was a better person. Not really, but that took 20 years for me to figure out. Now, 12 years later, I reckon I will be alone and die alone rather than go through any type of relationship again and it’s sad because I was a really good wife to both…..


  5. 27yr he had a heart attack. Free I’m free !! But what do I do now. Will I get myself back or am I lost


  6. How do I get out if this safely?? For 6 years he basically had me depend on him. Through my breast cancer and double mastectomy. I should have left then when he dumped me off at the hospital and then called 11 hours later to accuse me of sleeping with my doctor. I’m ready to give up. Please help


  7. I am just about to walk away from this relationship. This Sunday. I have no friends, I have nothing. No one to even talk to. Starting from zero – that is my destiny now. I can’t believe I committed to a man who almost destroyed me psychologically.I am a ghost, a shadow of what I was 4 and half years ago. I go from highs – being ecstatic cos I will get my life back again, to darkest downs – being worried how he will feel after I tell him, torturing myself it is actually my fault and so on, you know the story. I can’t believe these are actually my own thoughts. It is so hard to be all alone, no one to talk, except therapist, who doesn’t even understand what’s going on.


  8. Gosh, I am glad to hear I am not the only one. I have another 3 people in my relationship, the abuse is so scary and like some above I keep getting sucked right back in. I have left 3 times before but was always confused as I was being told by his mother, father and he that I was too emotional and that I needed help. I did suggest we go to marriage counselling but the councillor said she couldn’t help him because he lied to her. I on my 4th attempt of leaving but are still quite weak, I am been away for 6 weeks on long service leave so had a bit of time to get stronger but I seem to keep going back for me. So very hurtful as all I did was long the 3 of them, I have stayed longer than I should for my daughters sake but she is off to University next year so this is my opportunity. Please give me the strength to go through with it. His father is coming up to sort our problems out so we can move forward, I wonder how that is going to go!


  9. My husband left had an affair was on the verge of divorcing me then came back only to tell me that his not the problem I just have to work on the marriage,used me and when I asked for financial help he left,his back with his lover moved in and filing for divorce and I am once again then problem


  10. I am 60, and am becoming aware that I grew up under a narcissistic mother. Everything makes sense now.


  11. Barbara J Conchos

    I have lived this for 32 years and never knew there was a name for it.
    I just knew it didn’t feel just right.
    In the beginning I thought I could change him.
    After leaving a few times I wanted to believe this time was going to be different.
    Every time was the same thing..I have been gone for another month and my kids don’t believe this is it for me.But like others I’m tired and exhausted.
    I want a divorce.
    I want to be free, I want to be whole and happy.


  12. I have lived/loved a narcissistic person for 60 yrs. I didn’t know it until three yrs ago. Things have escalated since then. I’m afraid to get help because all I read is about men, men, men. What chance have I got to have anyone believe me that my wife has this behavior. She is a master / a professional lier, manipulated, & can turn the blame around to me without me even knowing. Things of mine dissappear & when I confront her she says I must have put it somewhere & forgot. The next words out of her mouth is I’m going crazy. When I die I know I’m not going to hell, I’m already there.


  13. I have been in a relationship with a Narcissist for almost 4 years, and yes, I was starting to believe that I was crazy, constantly. After finally learning about this personality disorder, I could put a name to the insanity which was inflicted upon me. Everything that is stated here, happened to me. I always felt, from the minute I met this man, that he was doing things behind my back. I just didn’t listen to my inner voice. I wish I had. I would have saved myself so much pain and suffering. I always wondered why I was never given any flowers or a gift for my birthday or a remembrance for Valentine’s Day. I suffered so greatly behind being ignored, I can’t even begin to tell you. I haven’t seen him in approximately two weeks. I changed everything…my phone…my email…but…these people monitor your every move and get the information one way or another. I have changed my phone and phone number at least six times in the past, and he has gotten all of them. Hopefully I will finally be at peace. I pray a lot and I am alone a lot. But I would rather be in my own space than being with life’s greatest pretender.


  14. Thank you so much for sharing this post. I have always thought something,I didn’t know what,but something was wrong with me even though therapists would never tell me something was wrong with me. No one would tell me what I wanted to hear that I was the crazy one. It was easier for me to believe that then to believe someone that I loved and cherished could possibly hurt me so deeply leaving me with scars and wounds so deep. Thank you for bringing awareness and helping victims to understand that it’s not them that nothing is wrong with them. We are victims,we are survivors we live some days hour to hour but one day we overcome.


  15. Donna margarita Sandoval

    I try to imagine myself before the abuse took place and I look at one thing I can’t understand my self …no body can understand my confusion my sense of direction loss.unaware of my surroundings.I only know there’s these things happening to me have become and are hitting me just as hard as I was hit emotionally physically mentally.I walk outside sometimes and just keep waking till either I find a way out from where iam lost or I learn how to remember point a to b and b to a.just recently I was stranded in the city the abuse took place I experienced these symptoms often in the city I can not focus function or speak correctly .I find myself in un known world that I only exist in messing with my thinking hearing speaking takes me down I hate it I left and was relocated partially because of this I tried to get past it I tried to over come it but in the beginning I didn’t quite understand that this was happening to me and why


  16. I just can’t believe what I just read!!! Wow blown away because I just read every symptom that I put in the search bar in one place. The only thing I don’t have is the disturbing thoughts!! Thank goodness! For the last 15 years I’ve been trying to figure out “What The Hell is Wrong with Me!”. And believe it or not I have mostly worked in the Mental Health field. From children to serious “Closed Unit adults! Where do I go from here?


  17. OMG!!! This article just hit it right on the spot. I’ve known about narcissist abuse syndrome but thought, I’m not that bad off, until I read this. All the symptoms have manifested in me, the self doubt, wondering if I’ve really lost my mind this time to damage to the hippocampus. I no longer live with my husband but can’t seem to just “let go” from the fear that it will never end even if I do let go. I’m not the same person I was 10 years ago and I’m not seeing 10 more years before it goes away. I’m in a transition phase so I will keep moving forward because I have to but this article gave me hope that there is help out there and I’m not “making all this up” as he states to me all the time. Thank you for giving me such insight.


  18. This article hits the nail right on the head. I’ve been trying to figure out how to explain my feelings to the people that care about me, with little to no success. You have spoken for me and others like me. Thank you


  19. The meme under #3 is all most word for word what I wrote in my journal a few days before deciding to leave my husband. It’s been two years and I’m in such a better place than I was in every way. But seeing that meme today gave me such validation – which I guess I really needed to have. Thank you.


  20. 20 years after meeting the narcissist, my life is still controlled and manipulated by her. There is no way out.


  21. Where to start.

    My life hasn’t been the same since 1997, when I met the worst narcissist I’ve ever met. Then throw in depression, bipolar, and borderline personality disorder.

    I fell for her anyway.

    Got engaged, got married, and then had my only son.

    Then divorce, custody, e.d., bankruptcy for her, custody over and over and over and over.

    A 2nd marriage, a wonderful wife, and then a wonderful daughter.

    But the narcissist is legally attached to me for another 5 years, because of my truly amazing, yet truly troubled, son.

    My family, son, wife, daughter, and extended family, has been through the ringer time and time again, all because I chose to become involved with this woman 20 years ago. And I must pay for that decision for another 5 years in a legal sense, and for the rest of my poor sons life in a much more personal sense.

    The communication with the narc is kept to a bare minimum for sanity, safety, and to avoid the next time she wishes to lie and fight me for more custody, or more money, or whatever her latest whim is.

    Yet my family and I are now bound by a court order not to move, to keep up communication with the “co-parent”, and to share financial and other personal life information with the narcissist who has drained my bank accounts, created false credit card accounts in my name and maxed them out, caused my home to be foreclosed, and my truck to be reposessed, and yet I’m to send friendly email reminders of my son’s school and social events, and welcome her to my families home for custody exchanges?

    Stuck for another 5 years.


  22. Reality has just hit me head on. I’m not crazy.


  23. After years of manipulation and abuse to the point were i had an out of body experience watching myself brush my teeth trying to get ready for work after an attempted strangulation and punching of my side and groin .I eventually had to call the police .My life feel apart I was nearly hospitalized .Then to find out that after he insisted in going into mental health hospital all the things hed done to me he listed as me doing to him .Game over ! Taken me years to recover flashbacks and few pannick attacks but anything is easier than dealing with living in continuous anxiety . Whatever it takes get out have no and i mean no contact and pull your life together .It will take strength you never thought you had but lets face it you had to be pretty amazing to start with because those type of people only choose strong beautiful hearted people its part of the game ! Build yourself up again you will never be the same but you can comeback stronger and wiser than before . Thankfully I had God through it all and I know Hes been my rock . I pray that you will find the door of escape and learn to live again .


  24. I was raised by narcissists. It has taken me a long time to even recognize this happened to me. I still feel like I’m living in an alternate reality. My mind wants to go back to when I thought my family was dysfunctional but that was normal somehow. The good news is I am beginning to come out of it. I have so much damage built up from living in that fucked up state. But it’s beginning to get better. So it can get better, just trust and love yourself and find a badass therapist. Good luck to all those who suffered these attacks.


  25. My husband stood by his mother during attack after attack. It took me 42 years to realize that he was as narcissistic as she. When my father-in-law died I knew I would no longer allow the charade to continue. I have divorced myself from my husbands family with the exception of my FIL’s sister. I live for the day when I can walk away from this man. Our youngest daughter is to marry late next fall. She doesn’t live at home any longer, but I simply refuse to cause her a concern during a year that will culminate into a dream come true for her. I no longer feel any guilt for not attending family functions, if anything, I feel lighter. I confide in my good friends and see a therapist. We have to talk about our hell, it is a survival mechanism. One day I will leave, and even though I am 65, I refuse to believe that true love does not exist. Sister’s, we have to believe in our dreams, we must learn that we can, and will survive.


  26. He was everything, and I mean everything, I had always dreamed of. The first 4 or 5 months were unforgettable. That’s my problem now, I keep remembering the first 4 or 5 months. I want that back! I struggle daily trying to convince myself that it wasn’t real. Well it was real for me. For 3-1/2 years I accepted everything he pointed out that was wrong with me. The meals I cooked, the clothes I wore, comments I made, my unimportant job, my lack of planning, my asking questions when he was trying to watch TV, the way I drove, the way I walked, talked . . . Nothing was ever quiet good enough. Even when he would throw out a compliment, there was always that “but”. I could never do enough. I honestly tried. I left several times, and he would always talk me into coming back. Usually by pointing out the fact that I just gave up instead of working thru the hard times. I should understand when he gets mad he says hurtful and mean things.
    I never knew who I was going to be with, when the last guest left. Would it be the man I feel in love with, or that imposter that had taken over his body? Sad that I have that last statement backwards! But it’s true.
    Yes, I gave up! But I too, am still praying for a miracle. If not for me, for the next woman.
    My focus now is on healing. Trying to think positive thoughts while hearing his voice in my head telling me he was embarrassed by something I had done. It’s the hardest thing I have ever tried to overcome. I don’t want to talk to anyone about it, because I’m so ashamed of what I allowed in my life.
    I keep asking myself; how did this happen? Why didn’t I see it?


  27. I can relate. All of the list is ptsd. Everyone after and even during a sociopath hijacking is effected. PTSD is all those things, the full list with slight variations person to person; everyone doesn’t have flashbacks that overwhelm them, and some have very little self doubt or self blame, some more fear even terror or anxiety than others. Depends on many, many contributing favtors.


  28. Nailed it. It’s nice to know there is a name for it
    and we are not alone. Narcissists tend to do
    Reverse psychology a lot and play victim in actuality, they prey on innocent victims.
    I am still recovering after 20 years and living with ptsd. It makes it even harder when there is children involved because they try to brainwash them and blame EVERYTHING on the other parent. Typical Narcissism!


  29. It’s very difficult for anyone believe until they themselves witness it. Mine isn’t with a romantic partner, but my sibling who is fifty years old. She conned my mother into selling our house to move in with her, so mom could pay her mortgage, she stole my deceased aunts CD’s that were left to me and paid off her house, now she’s trying to ditch my poor mother, as she doesn’t need her money. And she is making my life miserable. I recently had to evacuate to her home due to hurricane Irma, when I walked in the house, she started on me. She didn’t realize I had a friend, and when he walked in behind, she simply couldn’t stop herself at that point. I had warned him she would find something to create chaos as soon as I walked in the door. He couldn’t believe it, he admitted that he thought my stories were exaggerated “sibling rivalry” until he witnessed this with his own eyes. She didn’t stop there, as she was of course drunk and continued throughout the evening. It’s unbelievable to a normal, empathetic person, but I was relieved to have someone else witness the craziness. She has been gaslighting and manipulating everyone since I can remember. She abused me terribly both physically and emotionally. She did it to her own children, her two oldest boys left at 16 and no longer speak to her. She still doesn’t admit she is in the wrong, even though no one talked to her! I feel for anyone who has had to deal with this, it is pure torture! A living hell.


  30. Thank you, I’d never heard of a narcissist until after I finally left my ex. I one across a group on FB and as I read and learn more about it is when I realized this is exactly what had happened to me. Yes, day to day living is a struggle within my own head. And trust is very hard and feeling like I’m always being talked about behind my back. Anxiety is hell most days.


  31. This hits the nail on the head for me and my narsaccistic experience. I wonder if I will ever overcome the damage I endured and become “ME” again. I do not know how to get rid of the demons!! It is especially difficult because my abuser roams free and tries to contact me a million times a day with “gentle, nice, sweet; the person I loved communication” in which I try to ignore but feel if I know his thoughts, I feel safer. I entered into a new relationship and I try my best to show love and support, but many times I see De ja vu in his actions and words that are just like my ex. I then pull back and hide. He hates it if I mention Acting like my ex even though it is exactly the same sometimes. It seems to get worse the longer we are together. I can not ever go through that experience again. I lived a year in hell and I can never do that again. My current boyfriend is amazing 99% but like I mentioned, he sometimes acts exactly like the ex. He has trust issues, thinks I lie, gets upset over little things I may say or do, and now seems to want me to say how high when he says jump. I can’t do that!! It triggers bad thoughts and i freak out. Literally run and hide, ignore, not speak, submiss.


  32. This is all what I went through. I find myself crying when I read this because I wish I could’ go back in time, hug myself and say, ‘you’re not crazy. This is not a normal marriage. Leave now.’ So much of me was used up as narcissistic supply. It’s taken years to rebuild what he broke to feed his own weak ego. The real problem: so many health care workers and people who are supposed to ‘help’ don’t seem to appreciate what this abuse looks like.


  33. Thank you


  34. Terrified forever, numb hd to toe. Numb brain, its all true… they will kill you. You must escape, run, and Never Look Back!
    They lure u in and take your all. Including your spirit. Torture you physically & mentally as well, you see… They Enjoy it.
    Its a power play to them, Get Away Any Way You Can. Victims Destruction thier goal, then they smile & move on to another supply stashed person to destroy. And So Completely. What Souless Reched Things!


  35. I am only beginning to see the person I married being married only 2years with this man. Part of me wonders if he knows he’s doing it, part of me thinks he knows he’s doing it and doesn’t care. Any issue or problem I bring up is somehow my fault or made to be my fault then when I tell him, oh it’s my fault he back lashes and says, did I say that? or I didn’t say that and usually has an accompanied attitude with it. although I can say he’s never laid a hand on me or my 6 m/o daughter, ( he is a loving dad as far as I can see) his ways haven’t changed in the past 2 years. I have had some help recognizing his ways and how to get out. it wasn’t until recently I started doing research on the vic/abuser relationship. these stories are a lot more serious than mine at the moment, but give me a glimpse of the future I could have- and for a new baby and mom, I don’t want this. Thank you for putting this out here! I am currently trying to get help (I have seen a psychologist to try and see if I have any issues and he told me over the 3 months I saw him that he didn’t understand why I was there, my mental state did not seem to show any signs of needing the help). This article has helped me realize the problem isn’t myself. Having my daughter has only opened my eyes even more over the actions and reoccurrences I’ve witnessed over the past year alone (the whole time I was pregnant and the last 6 months) I can’t live like this… I know I’m strong but I guess this is my test of how strong. I will take the advice of ensuring I don’t do this alone, completely. I will ensure I have someone with me, my gut even says I need to. I really appreciate this article.


  36. Thank you for the posts. I’m going through a divorce. My husband is a narrcist. It’s not easy bc I still love him but I have to be free + happy. Everything I read describes him. We only been married for 18 months. Dated for 1 year. I was blindsided by his behavior and constantly being belittled, accused,hated,taken advantage of,etc. How could someone do these things to some who genuinely loved and cared for them? It’s mind boggling to say the least. So, I’m moving forward with my life and trying to get away from him.


  37. I am trying to raise 2 children with a narcissist. i already had a problem with clinical depression prior to meeting him and now the depression is just stagnant. He is making it almost impossible to continue any relationship with my oldest adult child from a previous relation and with my mother. The mental abuse continues. I dont have enough money to break free. Im not making excuses I am trapped.


  38. Wow… spot on is my response..


  39. Exactly. Thank you for writing this.


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