The Big Scam – and the steps to accepting the truth!


From my Book – From Charm to Harm and Everything else in Between with a Narcissist! @


“No one will ever love you as much as me.” “You’ll never find anyone as wonderful as me.” “You’re crazy if you think anyone else would want you.” “You don’t know how lucky you are that I put up with you.” “You will find out the truth one day and then you will see what you HAVE LOST.” Has anybody ever heard statements similar to these? Well this is what was said to me more often than I care to remember. The Narcissist wants us to swallow these lies hook, line and sinker and then they may even remind us of a handful of good memories (or what THEY perceive were good memories.) The agenda on the Narcissists part is to create a powerful, distorted belief, which keeps their target/victim from moving on or keeps them locked up in such confusion, chaos and crazy making. Just more abuse from the Narcissist to extract as much supply as he/she can. Supply is everything to a Narcissist, especially the type that causes the target/victim to feel great distress in a manner that controls – CONTROL IS POWER to the Narcissist.


The Narcissist is slow to abandon his/her victims always lurking, still rendering that FAKE existence, twisting and distorting life with no respite. Theirs is a remorseless voice, lacking any real compassion and empathy for their target/victim and just getting the most that the Narcissist can. The Narcissist is there in spirit long after they have vanished in the flesh because the Narcissist has attacked the mind and core of its targets/victims. This is the real danger that the victims of the Narcissist face, but the real kick in the bum is that we HAVE to mourn the love we had for them because we were tricked, conned, and betrayed into believing this was the real thing when it was completely a scam – THAT is the double edged sword a victim of this abuse deals with. Love just doesn’t go away even with the truth about them being our abusers is apparent! It is a process to recover and that must be our goal.


With all of that said, it takes time to grieve the loss of a significant relationship. No matter how awful your ex-Narcissist was, you still need to mourn the loss. This may be confusing because ending a relationship with a Narcissist should ultimately feel like an act of freedom or liberation from a monster. But for many it is not the loss of the “monster” that the Narcissist is in reality, but the loss is of the ideal, fantasy image that was constructed PERSONALLY for each of us by this Narcissist. This fantasy image of the great relationship and fleeting moments of sanity is not the Narcissist’s true self, INSTEAD the Narcissist’s true character OR an abusive psychological bully or terrorist. The relationship you love and miss was always predicated with many of your own “what ifs,” or in other words, “what if he/she weren’t so crazy” or “what If he/she weren’t so cruel” or “If only he/she wasn’t such a liar” or “WHAT IF I hung in there and proved that I was good and could have fixed the relationship.” Unfortunately the Narcissist is an abuser and there is “no fix” and you would spend your entire life “what if’ing” AND with great sacrifice to your own sanity. You will realize that you only experienced the tip of the iceberg as far as their psychopathy, betrayal, lies, perverse lifestyle, or their highly disordered life. Your journey is now about your freedom from the psychological abuse and recovery.


This is a variation on the five stages of grief to hopefully put a little perspective into the process of recovery. You have to go through this process in order to get through, let go and move on from this hideous abuse! The five stages include:


  1. Denial. You were in denial when you were in this relationship taking all of the “shame and blame” AND you are in denial whenever you consider getting back together with a Narcissist. When you catch yourself thinking, “he/she’s not that bad and he/she really does love me” you are just in denial of the truth. The Narcissist is personality disordered and they don’t love you. A Narcissist is not capable of loving you or anyone else because deep down they loathe and envy life and people. A Narcissist views you as an object to control and to support their fake image, they are extortionists of life and love. To the Narcissist people are props to use in their distorted, twisted fantasy world in which they are special, entitled, above reproach and not subject to the rules or basic human rights and decency that normal people abide by.


If you think you can help a Narcissist see the truth, just think back and remember them spewing all of that abusive poison at you. In the Narcissists mind, you should be grateful that he/she takes time from their “busy” schedule to criticize abuse and condescend to you. They ARE this delusional to believe in their omnipotence!


  1. Anger is the next stage AND it is not a bad thing, so get good and mad. Hold onto it for a while because it’s what keeps you from going back. Try not to get stuck here though, just experience the anger so it surfaces and then let it go. This is when you’re aware of how badly the Narcissist has treated or better yet abused you. It’s natural to feel anger when someone is deliberately cruel, dishonest, betrays you, or treats you unfairly. You had to repress your anger when you were with the Narcissist because expressing it would have led to more conflict and nastiness and it has been bottled up in you for far too long. You HAVE A RIGHT to feel angry. Just express it in a productive manner where you don’t hurt yourself or others. Create boundaries for yourself and channel the energy into something healthy and new. You must break the chain the binds you to this toxic poison and the anger will bind you for eternity if you let it. You just don’t want to suppress the anger because it will continually resurface until you release from it.


  1. Bargaining. This stage has a little bit of denial mixed in with it. You deny the reality of the situation or the severity of it and make deals with yourself – THIS WAS ABUSE MY FRIEND. For example, “The Narcissist said he/she is really sorry and that it’ll be different if we get back together.” “I’ll give him/her one more chance and if he/she starts acting crazy again, I’m out of there.” “Maybe if I’m a little more patient and am very careful and avoid pushing his/her buttons, it can work.” HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BARGAINED WITH THE DEVIL only to end up dragged back into the abuse?


You can’t bargain with someone to treat you well. Being treated with kindness, common decency, consideration, respect and acceptance should be a prerequisite for an intimate relationship or AANY relationship and not something you’re rewarded with for meeting unreasonable demands. You offered everything positive and good and were always used and abused in return. A normal person is capable of a reciprocal relationship. It doesn’t matter what you do or how nice, patient and understanding you are to a Narcissist because they are what they are or a controlling, toxic, cruel, abusive, emotional predator and bully. You can’t appease a bully or persuade them to be nice to you. If you try, a Narcissist will see you as weak and bulldoze you all the more.


  1. Depression. This is when it sinks in that there is no going back to this man/woman and that the man/woman you loved never existed AND that is a big WOW! You mourn the loss of time, your dreams, goals and the abuse you tolerated. You now direct the anger at yourself and feel foolish or stupid for being with them and fear getting into another abusive relationship.


Like the Anger stage, you don’t want to get stuck here either. Feeling sadness over this relationship is natural, but don’t let your experience with this abusive Narcissist distort how you view all relationships. This was not a fully functioning human being and you were conned into this abuse by a predator. Let education help guide you to the truth.


  1. Acceptance. While you’re not OK with what happened, you accept the reality of this toxic and abusive experience. You WILL let go of the anger and sadness WHEN YOU ARE READY. You gave them your yesterdays with love, and that may have been a mistake but by no means does it make you a fool or stupid – it made you a loving and caring person that did what normal people do. Don’t give them TODAY or any of your tomorrows those days are for the person or people that will love you back. You understand this concept now because your spirit WILL come back to you AND that is something the Narcissist can’t completely take from you.


The long term effects of this abuse are often very difficult to quantify or actualize in words. So many targets/victims will completely suppress and try to forget unwanted and painful memories in an effort to release from this pain and fear. In actuality the past becomes difficult to access and memory gaps exist. There are just too many daily levels of abuse that they are having to deal with and none of them are ever resolved so they are stored away to only surface later as trauma, depression and anxiety. All of this causes targets/victims to have feelings of detachment and/or isolation. Their self-worth and self-esteem are lowered and even destroyed completely. ALL of these unresolved feelings from the past abuse WILL eventually surface and contribute to severe emotional problems and disorders, including anxiety, panic attacks, severe stress, depression, isolation, and post-traumatic stress disorder. ! If you are constantly feeling these emotions, they have a strong hold on you. You can’t begin recovery or living life in a new and better way if any part of you holds onto the messages, blame, shame, guilt, and loss. Yes they are real but what is most important is getting better and back to life in new ways!


For so many targets/victims this abuse has devastated your life beyond comprehension. There is no easy fix when these creatures destroy people, families, lives, etc. BUT please don’t allow the poison to destroy your tomorrows. YOU ARE STRONG because you made it through this so far, now just go a little further every single day. Narcissists are like POISON, slow, methodical and lethal to other humans. Always remember this journey to recovery starts with no/minimal contact! Greg

Posted on May 30, 2016, in Narcissism. Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. I already make this through with my x husband…. but too my not foreseeing thoughts.
    . My son are 3 times his father.
    . And I must live now with him in the same house… and after taking all my money… his also now in control of my whole life!!! I must get out!!! And he must pay me back… must i go to a lawyer… or what? Please help!!!


  2. I feel like I am dreaming this, but not really. I want it to be a dream. I feel like I have lost my mind. Why is this happening?


  3. Shelia Burland

    I am in the stages of ending a relationship with a narcissist. yes its hard but as each day goes by, I get stronger. I heard the blames, lies and how everything was always my fault. For awhile I really did think I was going crazy, started having panic attacks and even contemplated suicide. I moved out of his house 2 years ago and several times he has tried to get me to move back in but I relived all the times he made life so hard that I changed my mind. I lay in my bed every night, safe & secure that I don’t have to live with him and listen to him threatening to kick me & my kids out because we didn’t do something he wanted. Now I am making the final move to another town as he will never leave me alone. I am grateful that I am not his ex-wife or had kids with that monster because I see what he does to her, still does to her, they have been in court since 2010 and it will never quit. He has 3 kids and 2 of them refuse to have anything to do with him. I hope one day there is a test that they have for people like him because they are very mental. Its amazing how they are the most loving people in the world in the beginning then over time become satan himself. No contact is absolutely the way to go. I am beginning to love life again and I will never go back to where I was….


  4. Ana,
    Thank you so much for your blogs. They are wealth of knowledge, and insight to what some of us are still experiencing.


  5. your blog slays!


  6. Accepting this truth has been the hardest part for me. Realizing that it was not special, destined, or soul-mates.. that I was just there to fill the Narcissist’s needs and that I can be replaced by any willing woman…


  7. Reblogged this on Blog of a Mad Black Woman and commented:
    “The agenda on the Narcissists part is to create a powerful, distorted belief, which keeps their target/victim from moving on or keeps them locked up in such confusion, chaos and crazy making.” ~ After Narcissistic Abuse


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