Goodbye 2012 and Good Riddance Narcissistic Abuse
Sooner or later we’ve all got to let go of our past.
I cannot express strongly enough how GRATEFUL I am that 2012 is soon to be HISTORY!
For the past 2 years, Ive watched what I thought was the biggest “love” of my life, pass through the stages of reality. It went from “love” to nightmare, to absurdity, and finally defining it for what it really was: narcissistic abuse which then acted as a springboard from which came my deepest personal transformation and restoration of faith in the triumph of Good over evil.
The changes that have transpired now that narcissism is no longer an element in my life is such a liberating feeling. Sure, I discuss it daily and help others come to understand what narcissism is and how it can impact our lives; it’s part of the territory of giving back. When God brings you through an experience, it is with purpose. He wanted me to get this lesson; to really understand it so that I could pay forward my knowledge to lead the way through the darkness for anyone who found themselves lost in the grip of pain that narcissism causes.
The narcissist that abused me has remained lost in their mental illness, as narcissists do and continues to play out their issues and abuse with other victims. My life, mind, spirit and heart are completely severed from that person and I am truly blessed and thankful for the freedom that God has bestowed upon me. I must have prayed a million “release me” prayers that were finally answered.
What I carried with me and embrace is sharing the knowledge of malignant narcissism and how it’s prevalence in our society, in epidemic proportions, is what I believe to be the root of all evil. As a spiritual person, I’ve come to understand how narcissism separates us from the Love of God, God’s good grace and his will. I see firsthand how narcissists act as their own “idol” and carry out deeds of darkness; something God hates.
Paying forward the act of God seeing me through my own experience with evil has opened my eyes in ways I would have never imagined. It is absolutely heart wrenching to hear the stories of so many survivors who’s identities and lives were destroyed by narcissists. Across our planet, there are alienated parents, lonely children, hurting men, saddened women, fatherless boys, motherless girls, frustrated friends, separated sisters, in laws, employees, husbands, parents, teachers, brothers, sons, and daughters, who have paid the price for being loving and kind to the wrong people. The senselessness with which narcissists targeted those who have become like family to me has literally taken my breath away, brought me to tears, and made me want to hop on a plane and fly cross country just to sit with a friend who’s mourning or has to face a narcissist in court and needs support far many more times than I can count.
Yet, what AMAZES me and restores my faith in the goodness of SOME people, is how such hurting people can remain so FULL OF CLASS, GRACE, HUMILITY, HOPE & HONESTY! I have seen so many atrocities committed by narcissists who are backed by accomplices in families, courts and the general population – I see targets standing ALONE facing the most horrific losses of children, financial means, homes, criminal free records, identities, families, friendships – and teetering on the brink of life & sanity…YET, they aren’t willing or able to stoop to the low rent actions or lack of emotional responsibility that a narcissist can. To see the comparison of the quality of character between a narcissist and their victim is such a stark contrast that it leaves me with nothing but hope that goodness does prevail over evil.
Picking yourself up from the floor where the narcissist stomped you into a hole with nothing to cling to, is by far….the deepest hole, I personally have ever had to climb out of, and yet EVERYDAY….I witness someone else, doing it right along side me. Keeping a smile on their face and hope in their heart that they’d much rather be climbing out of the darkest hole than still engaged with a narcissist, is proof that the spirit of a target is light years ahead of their tormentor.
We’ve learned what makes us vulnerable to a narcissistic predator and we’ve TOUGHENED those areas up. We haven’t sought the easy path of escapism; diving back into a relationship or using drugs, food or some other distraction to avoid the truths of what made us vulnerable. We’ve STEPPED UP to life, and said, what have you got? Show me where I went wrong and Ill take responsibility for that. We’ve taken a cold hard look at ourselves in the mirror and said, “Im willing to do something different, and Im ready to start TODAY!”
We’re READY 2013! We’re ready to RISE ABOVE narcissistic abuse and put it where it belongs: IN THE PAST.